you know that feeling of shock when you discover that you've missed out on something important?
looking through the pictures of my high school classmates, i realized how much i've missed out.
people's debuts. fun at the beach. random parties. random formal occassions. out of town trips with just friends.
when i ask myself why i missed out on these experiences, i could say nothing more than i was too afraid to step out of my comfort zone to try something new. and the same goes to my close friends as well. none of us made the effort to have the fun that other high school kids got to have. so who's to blame?
it sucks that i look back and feel only regrets. all those "if only i had" moments flood me and overwhelm me to the point that tears are just a drop away from falling.
when did they move so far ahead?
"I can't keep up anymore..."
